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Greengirl Sep 14, 2003 12:16 Read 105 times, Dig?
I have never felt more alone than when I was in such a huge group of people.  No one truly knows me... no one knows that I struggle with myself constantly.  I fight an inward battle that manifests itself in actions that I later regret.  God, I just want to be loved, to be cared about, to be listened to, to be taken seriously, to be over these confidence issues, to have adequate social skills.  Sometimes I find it so difficult to be a woman in this society.  A straight woman in this society.  Sometimes I just want to scream "FUCK YOU! LEAVE ME ALONE!!"  But I don't.  I am passive, and I smile, and laugh, and get drunk, and say things I shouldn't say, and do things I shouldn't do.  Man, I am so lonely at the moment.  The conversations I have with myself, inside my head, are driving me insane and leaving me empty.  What do I need?  What do I really want?  What is really wrong?
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  • "nothing is wrong. you are like the rest of us. always assert your worth to yourself(simple, but not easy) things will change. we are all alone, yet always forced to live with ourself(s) . live in harmony " - pip
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